Since i’m not going to count down later on, and i’ve absolutely nothing to do at home, i shall blog about 2009. It’s always been what i’ve wanted to do but i didn’t have time/mood for it so, yeah this is the moment. *deng deng deng dengggg~ drumrolls* it’s going to be a really long post (i think) so read it if you’ve an hour to spare HAHA kidding.
Alright, so this year has been…. a weird year for me. I think. It’s nothing special, nothing really big or major happened. Or maybe something did but i can’t remember it. Then again if it’s really big i should remember it so i guess not. Alright haha, it’s been basically a year of little events added up together to form, a year. Oh wait, now i remember what’s the biggest thing that ever happened to me in 2009.
Actually it hasn’t really been a good year in terms of my results, but i really pray that things will turn out for the better in 2010! And there are many people that i’ve really grown closer to that i’ve never thought of, people in 3L. Taylin, Sarahgoh, just to name a few. I’ve never really thought about knowing them, but once i did, i didn’t regret it. (i know i know, don’t cry HAHA)
But there is also a friend that i’ve lost too, yeah. I guess life really gives you the unexpected. You can be really close at points of time, you know and you know that you’re going to be best friends for life. The friend that you once had was so close, you’ll tell the person every single thing that you’re going through, be it good or bad. The bond is so strong that not even ten thousand whales can break it. You know each other inside out, upside down. Anything that happens, you know that you can always count on each other. You guys will stay back during recesses just to chill and talk, hours of phone calls, 4pages of messages to encourage you, little gifts that make you heart smile, smiles that brighten up your days, crying on the phone while your friend patiently wait and listens, being sensitive and know when things are not going right, talking about your period without having to feel embarrassed, talking about guys for hours without making your friend irritated/jealous, sharing jokes, doing retarded/idiotic stuffs and laugh it off, feeling at ease with one another without the romance part. You guys can be so close that very often people mistook you for a couple, when you know that you’re never going to like each other in that way. The friendship is so.. -inserts some really mindblowing and mighty word- that it’s almost sacred. It’s so precious. But the it slips. away. i lost it all. So am i a bad friend or what? life goes on, does it really? Well, i think so. I am still breathing and living so i guess it still goes on. with the fact that i lost someone i love, yeah life does go on. So, what can i do about it?
“Keep Holding On”
You’re not alone
Together we stand
I’ll be by your side, you know I’ll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There’s no place to go
You know I won’t give in
No I won’t give inKeep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Just stay strong
‘Cause you know I’m here for you, I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it throughSo far away
I wish you were here
Before it’s too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I’ll fight and defend
Yeah, yeahKeep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Just stay strong
‘Cause you know I’m here for you, I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it throughHear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing’s gonna change, nothing’s gonna change destiny
Whatever’s meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahLa da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da daKeep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Just stay strong
‘Cause you know I’m here for you, I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it throughKeep holding on
Keep holding onThere’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
how i wish that i could sing this to you right now, or someday. Frankly speaking, it hurts. I dont think anyone knows. I’ll cry whenever i think of it, cry like some water fountain, i’m not exaggerating. I’m crying even now, as i’m typing. thinking. typing. recalling. typing. feeling. typing. You’re the bestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestest friend that i’ve ever had. You mean the world to me (well, apart from God and my family) But apparently we didn’t make it through. Maybe i’ve done something wrong, i dont know. I was never given the chance to find out anyway. Best Friends For Life?
I was struggling when i’m typing whatever that’s up there. But i figured that since it’s the last night of the year, why not? Maybe i’ll be able to put all these behind and start a new year, maybe. Who knows, i just wanted to let you know how i really feel since i couldn’t, if you ever read this. Maybe things will turn out good in 2010, maybe. I love you and i miss you, have a good life. and be happy.
xoxox, mag.
OKAY, I’VE FINALLY SAID WHAT I’VE WANTED TO SAY FOR THE PAST… FEW MONTHS BUT DIDN’T GET THE CHANCE TO. SO, I GUESS I’M FEELING BETTER. i think. i hope. whatever i’m going to go to the happy parts now!
To the important people in my life (the sequence is random):
Since i talked about taylin i shall start with you!
THEBUG! LINNIFIER! (inserts the thousand and one nicknames i have for you) I LOVE YOU LA GIRL. HAHAHA. I bet you love me too, and nicholas. He’s fated with you, really. I think you guys make a really great couple, he’ll like try to talk to you and you’ll stab him in his so very big tummy that can store up to a billion beans. I really hope you guys last long, invite me to your wedding okay, but must make sure he doesn’t eat up all the food or else i wont come! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA. Ohman this is why i love you so so much, you let me make fun of you! like, really. I think you’re the number 1 person that i make fun of most!!!!! SHHO KAWAII NEHXX EUU, lurbs lurbs. Alright down to serious business. I really didn’t expect to befriend you when i’m in secondary 2 (okay okay i know we’ve talked alot about this but still) like we’re always so distant and stuff. But once i got to know you, WHOA. SIAO MAN. my mind cannot take it already, everyday we’ll be filled with world class jokes (you are a world class joke too) and our candlelight recesses and the polky recess(that we’ve yet to have) and all the freaking crazy moments we’ve had together, laughing our intestines out. Seriously, i think i laughed the hardest in my whole entire life with you and felihia!! crazy man. You never fail to amuse and amaze me with your intelligence. your pictures crack me up (ohno i’m cracked o:) EVERY SINGLE TIME without a doubt when i look at them. SO FUNNY OKAY. You’re also like, the most positive person EVER. never really seen you feeling down, you never express it! (unless you see nicholas la) AND omg you like never hate anybody like that one (apart from nicholas la, and cats and dogs HAHA) You never fail to cheer me up and encourage me girl, i can imagine you eating a lizard for me to survive if you had to. RIGHT?! 
LOVE YOU, YOU’VE GIVEN ME A VERY VERY SPECIAL YEAR IN 3L!!!!! <3<3<3 THE BUG hahahaha!
Next up is sarah goh!!! my tablemateeeee. OMGSH, so many things to say about you too. Omg we’re super retarded together okay, coming up with weird names like collarbone and ybab! It’s weird how we used to not talk, and now we’re talking like, we’ve been friends for 5 years. You are a really tolerating person (having to put up with my nonsense in class and all) BUT WAIT, YOU’RE A NONSENSICAL PERSON TOO! I SWEAR -a second of silence- BURST OUT LAUGHING. omg man! HAHAHA. we’re like the ultimate tablemates, coolest tablemates ever!!!!! We’re so cool that even mr liu is jealous of us, I STILL REMEMBER THAT TIME WHEN WE LAUGHED SO MUCH/LOUD THAT MR LIU HAD TO SEPERATE US OKAY. so embarrassing!!! like primary school kids like that. seriously LOR 
) (HAHA GAY SMILE) but you’re a really sweet girl too, showering me with lots of love by calling me baby and all that. HAHA, really man. I think you’re like the first to call me that (apart from my mom) hahahah. and still remember our lao di fang? and the party that we visualised that never came true? all the good moments, planning, meeting up for no apparent reason. ITS GOOD THAT WE STAY SO NEAR, WE SHOULD TOTALLY BE NEIGHBOURS. then we’ll go to each others’ house and borrow things like, cheese or bracelet. or crashing at your place then we can go gymming *winks* i think you’re a really deep person too. and your english is really good. HAHA. crap. ohman. HAHAHA. YOU’RE MY LOVELY SHAN FOREVER YOU THIS PRETTY/HANDSOME THING <3 haha the important word : thing. HAHAHAHirock
EH WHY THEIRS SO NICE AH!?!!
KEZIAAAAAAAAYEEEEEEEE. omgsm SUSHI PARTNER (with yunnie duff also) We’ve known each other for like, 3 years already! You’re the first friend i made when i first came to cellgroup, i can still vaguely remember the scene when we were introduced! At first i was feeling kinda scared and all cos i don’t know the people in W341 but you talked to me and all AND SINCE THEN WE’VE BECAME BEST FRIENDSSSSS (even though i’m 15 you’re willing to hang out with me still!!! THANKYOU!) It has really been a rocky 3 years man, like we’ve been through the ups and downs but we still pulled through nevertheless, I THANK GOD FOR THAT!!!!! I know there are times when you’re down and i wasn’t there, SORRY!!! but i really hope that i can be! I know i’m not a perfect bff but i will try my best!!!! <3 Thanks for all the sacrifices (be it money or time) I REALISED THAT YOU SPENT ALOT ON ME. like my birthday and xmas gifts. OMG MAN. Next year next year, your sexy eighteen and my sweet sixteen eh *winks and does intense eye contact* HA HA HA HA HA OMG! i learnt the intense eye contact thing from diaosimi HAHAHAAHAHA. CONTINUE CHASING THE IMPOSSIBLE AND ONE DAY IT’LL TURN TO THE POSSIBLE FOR YOU! never doubt God/yourself. IM SURE YOU LEARNT THAT ( and many other stuffs) LIKE, THIS YEAR RIGHT. Continue to fight for God and your dream okay! JIAYOU! I LOVE YOU KEEGERRRR!!! <3 we should have a sleepover soon (like next year hahahah) YOU’RE THE BEST (just like that you wrote on your wall with MY account HAHA)
KOH JIAYU! omggggggggggggggg we’ve so so so so so so many moments together. Seriously. I feel like saying you know, i know, don’t need say. If i were to list it all, I THINK BY THE TIME 2010 COMES I’M STILL HALF-DONE ONLY MAN. HAHAHA, i love you womanioz!!!!!!! You’re really always there for me whenever i’m sad, frustrated, high (HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!) or just plain, weird. HAHA crap! We knew each other since like what, sec 1? The most memorable event that happened was when we both cried outside your classroom and then some teacher walked past and joshua ang too! and we shared about our dreams! GOSH. GIRL. YOU’RE THE ONE WHO REALLY, FULLY SUPPORT MY DREAM MAN! (same here ok! HAHAHA) like, really. you make me feel like i can do it, REALLY! Inspiring, you can do it too girl! We’re going to be really great designers in time to come, its just a few years more before we start appearing on magazines and newspaper for being the top designers of our era! WAY TO GO GIRL! Never give up on your dream, when you’re feeling lost, go back to where you find your dream again AND, be happy with josephine! She’s a really great friend okay, no matter what happens between you girls ah, must keep hanging on!!!! trust in the love and friendship <3 YOU WOMANIOZZZZZZZZZZZ. YOU ARE, WHOOSH!
KRISTALYNNIE BOOBOOOBOBOBOBOXIAOBO hahahha omg xiaobo!!! “omg you ass” – this will always remind me of you. HA! you say that like, ALL THE TIME. LOLOLOL SERIOUSLY MAN, but anyways. I REALLY WANT TO THANK GOD FOR A BOOBOO FRIEND LIKE YOU. we’ve known each other for like 3 years, but i feel like we’ve known each other for life. I can talk to you about my problems and vice versa! Even though there was a period of time when we weren’t very close cos of some, reasons (HAHA SHUTUP I WAS YOUNG AND IMMATURE DUDE) but i’m glad that you didn’t give up on me and we managed to get close after that! REMEMBER OUR 1 DOLLAR 6 MONTHS BET! i’m going to do that next time YOU get attached HA! Best fish friends forever man! I still remember the letters you wrote to me, and i wrote to you (well i can’t really remember the details luh but i realised we were quite mushy last time HAHA like the “i love you, but i’m not gay” or something part) But atleast we mean what we say to one another luh! Let me take you away babe. HAHA. GOSHHH. it’s already 3 years, went through so many stufffssss but we’re still going strong! hahaha you’re a super rubbish person, always coming up with qian-bian stuffs like giving me starbucks on my 21st birthday, but (omgsh i can’t believe i’m saying this to you in public) i find it cute (ohhh shit…) I HOPE YOUR EGO WON’T GO UP BECAUSE OF THIS. HAHAHA. You’re a really special friend to me and i really treasure that, you’ll forever be my “the founders” buddy and BFF! <3 YOU FISH BOOBOOOOO <3<3<3
PHOEBEJOYKWONG, we’re related. HAHA. too bad XD Blood is thicker than water so, WHENEVER I DO STUPID STUFFS DON’T DENY ME AS YOUR COUSIN! MUAHAHAHAHAAHA~ You’re another very deep person, i really hope that you’re feeling okay right now despite all the shits that was going on. Be strong, when you’re lost in life, always go back to Him okay! Babe, you’re one hot girl (no wonder we’re cousins HA HA HA) you’ll always have a place in my heart omgshhh!! HAHA. We’ve known each other since even before i was born! I was talking to you in my mom’s stomach on your 1st bday remember, in the video! hahah i’m really glad to have you as my cousin (well kinda a distant one but i don’t care) and we’re going to be roomies in Paris next time!!! (hopefully…) I realised you’re always the sensible one (kinda luh.. HAHA) and the one teaching me stuffs (HAHA), obviously cos you’re older than me! HAHA. But i’m really happy cos i don’t have any siblings so i’ll just treat you like my sister luh xD We’re cool cousins cos we have OUR song, superwoman ftw! Even though we’re like so far apart but we’ll be connected as one. OMG THAT’S LIKE. MUSHY x1000 PLEASE. HAHAHA. but anyways it’s true, it’s in the bloood yo. HAHAHA OMG. KEEP HANIGNG ON WOMAN, no matter what is happening. They may hurt you but don’t let the shits break you alright! LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE CHERRY MUCH! <3
YUNNIEDUFF! gosh, you’re one of the rich and famous (with kezia swift and maggah montana) HAHAH, we’ve known each other for like so long too!!! But we weren’t close at first cos we’re in our own cliques but i’m glad that there’s a period of time whereby cliques are not allowed that kinda thing, then we got to know each other more! But i must say that 2009 is really the year that i got to know you as a friend, not just a member! Like we talk more, hangout more, take pictures more, laugh more, go crazy (over hot guys) more! You pretty french lady Did i tell you that i love your eyes btw?? i think i’m going to confess to you right now. HAHAHAHA. WILL YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND PRETTY PLEASE? HAHAHHAA NOLA NOLA. You’ve also been the smiling face alot of times in my life. We’re really grown closer after the years and i really pray that we’ll continue to grow closer too!!! WE ARE GOING TO TO BE RICH WOMAN NEXT TIME (when you meet your rich boyfriend luh.. HAHAHAH) AND WE’RE GOING HAVE HIGH TEA WHEREBY I’LL FLY FROM PARIS AND KEZIA FROM JAP/LONDON TO WHEREEVER YOU ARE. or you guys can always fly to paris ^^ AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. No matter what’s happening in your life, must continue to believe in God that things will turn out fine okay!!! You can do it woman!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! <3
THIS REMINDS ME OF THE 3 OF US!!!!!! me, you, kezia. HAHAHAHA
Last but not least, Wesley Chuang! be honoured. HA HA HA. I didn’t realllyyyyyy thank any guys in this post okat, didn’t really la. HAHA. Thanks for all that you’ve given to me (like staying up till 5 plus when there’s church tomorrow just to talk to me the day i’m tipsy) i can’t remember anything else.. HAHAHAHA NOLA NOLA. And the taka vouchers last year and the till morning phone calls we used to have. HAHAHAHA. Ohman, you’re really annoying at times but THANKS. They have really stretched the capacity of my patience. HAHAHAH XD thanks for appreciating me even though i can be really, high and weird at timessssss. We’ve also known each other for pretty long, like 3 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well, going to luh. HAHA. There are times when we don’t really talk but i’m glad that we do now! AND, don’t send cheesy messages (even though it was kinda somebody else who did it BUT ANYWAYS) to a girl if you want her to be your girlfriend while watching fireworks okay. HAHAAHAHAHA OMG HILARIOUS LA!!!! Young and immature. tsk. BUT I HOPE THAT YOU’VE GROWN UP NOW, or growing up atleast ^^ HAHAHA. AND, don’t always talk about girls can anot! (i know i always talk about guys but still!!) REMEMBER WE’RE SUPPOSED TO TRAVEL TGT WITH OUR FRIENDS ONE DAY OKAY. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!! oh and, ahem. chanel. ahem. HAHA. THANKYOU IN ADVANCE LOVE YOU DUDE!! <3
We’ll be like them yeah!
To those that i didn’t mention in my blog, DON’T FRET/BE SAD COS I STILL LOVE YOU ALL TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3<3<3
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they used to be sooooooo amazing last time, with the faux snow and all. but now it’s just, tons of yellow/red/blue light bulbs.town-ed with tablemate and samwee
